I'm in frustrated stage

'I'm in frustrated stage'

Things out of control again... 1st day and i alreasy loss. I got briefing for tomorrow fair, for part time promoter. And everything become confused. What i've planned for today ruined... And i'm not in the mood anymore... I can't smile... I can't put my positive attitude in my mind. I will definitely wasted my 4 hours doing nothing and waiting...

If not because of i need money... I won't be here now.. After all that happened today... I want to run from humiliation... From this shit...

I hate myself!! For give up that easily... Thats why i try to comfort myself... And think everything wil be fine this time... I need money urgently... And this is the fastest i can get...

My mind in complicated stage now, with my kitten is injured and no one to bring me to the clinic... But myself, still stuck and doesn't know when the exact time for my briefing to finish later this afternoon, and whether i can bring myself home in time and go to the clinic in time too...