Manner

'Manner (an etiquette a man needs to have)'

If you’re a man, I think that you shouldn’t act so sly like a fox and not lie. You need to know how to respect a woman and see the bigger picture in the world with a simple mindset. You need to know when to be strong to stronger opponents, but weak to weaker opponents as well.

#Bang Yongguk - B.A.P's Leader

Feel Tired

' Feel Tired'

26th March 2013

There a time when you felt like quitting from everything, when you start to give up and wants nothing anymore but away from anyone.

All of sudden, from start of the day till near midnight, I still feel miserable and stress over nothing. It's like nothing can make me happy anymore. But... why??

I thought of many things, I kept everything to myself and rarely told anyone including my family and best friend. When things got complicated, I ran away by busily doing my favorite therapy... watch korean or japanese drama for hours or take a long sleep away from anything.

It keeps me smiling and laughing over nothing. It helps me to feel I can still breath. It helps me to be me.

There's too much conditions that happened which make me feel weak and useless everyday. I can't even be confident anymore with myself because of my conditions. ( i can't say it here )

When I'm physically be me, laughing and smiling over nothing, mentally I'm ruining my thought with everything. It's become a habit and people tends to ask me, why I'm laughing?? what's so funny? but like always i will just shrugged and say, just because...

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I'm still surviving, even when i felt like I'm dying.

Everyday is a drama time!

'Everyday is a drama time!'

24th March 2013

Yup!! It's true... From the 1st day of my part-time promoter for fair till now, I get a chance to see a drama aired in front of me like a HD... Or should I say live?

They will tell a story about others, fighting and angry to someone, talk behind their backs, hating each other while smile in their faces, crying and fighting over the phone with beloved one, and much more.

Too much drama sometimes make me headache, confused, doesn't know who should I trust (which I decided to hear and not sided with anyone) , put my acting mask and eagerly listen to their whining and blaming towards each other.

I'm still new, and I stay only for 2 and half weeks there which mean whatever happened there won't lasted too long for me to watch and observe who is who they say they are.

They are a good people, but mistrust, misunderstanding, egoist, tempered, misjudge, and such make them fight with each other in a silent but brutal mode.

How could you told someone as new as me at my very 1st day that your very own colleague has a bad attitude? And every single day you will remind me to see how bad their colleague is doing that time? How you being could too prejudice with that person just because of his mistakes?

I'm a very simple minded person, sometimes I don't see whets the big problem of that drama. It can end faster if they give and take, confront their hatred together instead of giving too much negative aura at the floor.

But, without that drama, I'll become too bored to work, dull, and not much to listen about. Well, I'm a very great listener, since they got too much info they want to tell me, in order for me to understand their current drama episode of the day.

They might work with each other for a long time, but how can you work with thinking that you hate their attitude every day? Talk behind their backs about their mistake but keep your mouth shut and smile when in front of them? Bring out others mistake to everyone exclude them only make things worse, where your professionalism when you need it? You’re working not to make enemy...

Don't burden yourself with too much melodramatic drama... you just make yourself an actor for the rest to watch it through HD.