Feel Tired

' Feel Tired'

26th March 2013

There a time when you felt like quitting from everything, when you start to give up and wants nothing anymore but away from anyone.

All of sudden, from start of the day till near midnight, I still feel miserable and stress over nothing. It's like nothing can make me happy anymore. But... why??

I thought of many things, I kept everything to myself and rarely told anyone including my family and best friend. When things got complicated, I ran away by busily doing my favorite therapy... watch korean or japanese drama for hours or take a long sleep away from anything.

It keeps me smiling and laughing over nothing. It helps me to feel I can still breath. It helps me to be me.

There's too much conditions that happened which make me feel weak and useless everyday. I can't even be confident anymore with myself because of my conditions. ( i can't say it here )

When I'm physically be me, laughing and smiling over nothing, mentally I'm ruining my thought with everything. It's become a habit and people tends to ask me, why I'm laughing?? what's so funny? but like always i will just shrugged and say, just because...

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I'm still surviving, even when i felt like I'm dying.